mood: anxious
I submitted my painting to the scholarship contest.

They'll pick a select few to be part of the gallery show that will run from Nov 4- Dec 4

and from those they will select one 1st place winner - $1000

one 2nd place winner - $750

one 3rd place winner - $500

and two honorable mentions will receive $125 each


It'd be pretty fantastic to win some money. Bright futures leaves me with about $800 that I still have to pay for, so any of the places would be really helpful to me. At the very least, I'd like my piece to be in the show.

I'm pretty confident that it's a good piece. I spent a lot of time carefully painting it. A lot of me went into it. I felt bad leaving it there in that room. However, I've come to realize it's not always about a piece just being good. I'm worried I put too much of myself in it and it doesn't look as logical and systematic as the other pieces I saw in there. I saw a bunch of skeleton studies..which is basically college art I guess. In other words I guess I'm worried it's too fantasy and not collegy enough. Whatever. They will never crush me under that cookie stamp. Of course I'd be quite upset if I didn't win, even moreso if I didn't win anything at all. I'd be horribly depressed if they called me on Monday and told me to pick up my rejected piece, but even right now at this moment I'm proud of myself because I made a painting. It is complete (to the fullest extent I will allow myself to complete it) and it is framed and wired and man framing really does make a difference. It actually looks professional and quite pretty. So even if I don't win squat, I have myself a beautiful painting I can proudly put up for the world to see. Heck, I bet I could even sell it for a nice amount. However I do have personaly issues with selling pieces...I need to get over that haha.


oh well bla bla bla
I have a busy and stressful weekend ahead of me

with me luck!


P.S.

BIG thanks to Jaro for "helping me" with my artist statement.
If I win ANYTHING it's because of him.